HAPPY HAPPY OCTOBER!!!! This is my favorite month of the whole entire year..... I love halloween more than christmas end of story. This fall cool weather and sweaters makes everything so much better. I not only love October because halloween is here but I love it because it brings a ton of awareness to breast cancer. I challenge you this month to not only reflect upon breast cancer and the survivors and fighters but to also acknowledge other cancers, diseases, and injuries that effect a persons daily life. Some people's day may not be able to consist of a pumpkin spice latte from Starbucks and acknowledging that and being thankful for even that coffee is huge. I am not saying do not enjoy that latte I am just saying cheers to those who may be having a hard day. I have been really focusing a lot lately on taking a step back from my very hectic life and thinking about things I am grateful for. It is hugely important to me to be humble and understand where I come from. I have not had the easiest life nor has many others and it helps to put life and my personal struggles into perspective. We are not alone, there is someone somewhere who has been through very similar hard days and it can be overcome and turned around. I think this thought process is harder said then done. I have been extremely stressed and stuck in a rut and I am trying to learn how to train my mind to not sink into those sad places. I am hoping to master this skill because I do have so much to be grateful for, and even though on some days I see no light at at the end of the tunnel, I am so blessed. I have gotten great at deep breathing exercises to calm my nervous down and have actually come more into tune with my emotions and on how to attempt to control my anxiety. Those dang tests get me every time. Nursing school has done lots of damage to me thus far. My heart rate probably stays at least 80 beat per minute even when resting because there is always something lingering in my mind that needs to be done. I have struggled with being too hard on myself and it is taking a tole on me while being in this program. Life is not over if I get a B over an A. That difference is not what is going to make or break me as a nurse. I am going to be a great nurse because I want it bad enough. I want to impact others badly enough. I have the heart, determination, and mind to do it. I need to stamp that saying on my forehead ;) ....that A is not gong to reflect it in real life my actions will. Once again..... easier said then done. Grades have always been such a big deal, and now in this program it is more about understanding the skill and treating the patient as a person not an identification number. It is the weirdest feeling wanting something so badly and having the fear of failing in the back of your mind........
due to all this craziness and stress things such as haunted houses, baking treats, watching hocus pocus etc gets me beyond pumped!!! I need the little things to keep me going... so if you want to contribute I will love you forever! I really don't think you get how much I love halloween!!
PS: Petco is slacking this year and I have not yet found Reese (my amazing dog whom I will flaunt another day) a costume I like yet. any ideas for her???
Here are some of her previous costumes ;) she is just the best.
